I can tell today will be a better day. I can tell that because I was allowed to fix my energy as soon as I got up. Mornings are a rutual for me and they have to remain that way. I have to be allowed some time to right my energy. I think this ritual is needed and it helps me. It does not matter what anyone else thinks. It should not matter because it is my belief and it should be respected.*
And so, for the first time in a week, I was allowed to right myself with no interfearance. I do the usual things humans do when they get up. I pee, brush my teeth, wash my face with Oil Of Old Lady and put on the coffee. I feed my rat her cereal and then I head for the door. Then I sit in a fairly secluded place and watch nature. I do it in all seasons and in the rain or snow. Sometimes I only need a few minutes, today I needed an hour and a half.
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I like knowing the plants. Miss Peggy's pink Yarrow sprig is now a mature wonder and I have to observe it to see how it reproduces. Acorn Squash has popped up in the Moonflowers and I puzzled that for awhile. I remembered Lissa broke a squash on the sidewalk for fun. Squash are a great joy to break that way. Some seeds must have bounced into the flowers. I'm leaving them there, I like watching them. The Moonflowers are tall, the Squash are runners, they should get along. The smell of all the Herbs was lovely this morning. There is some Fleabane blooming near the dog house. That's one of natures little jokes. And the Morning Glorys are not blooming, but, they have reached the top of the fence and are violently climbing themselves, twisting back and making their own green pole to climb. I should untangle them, but, I find it bizarre and fascinating how they make what they need.
I like knowing the plants. Miss Peggy's pink Yarrow sprig is now a mature wonder and I have to observe it to see how it reproduces. Acorn Squash has popped up in the Moonflowers and I puzzled that for awhile. I remembered Lissa broke a squash on the sidewalk for fun. Squash are a great joy to break that way. Some seeds must have bounced into the flowers. I'm leaving them there, I like watching them. The Moonflowers are tall, the Squash are runners, they should get along. The smell of all the Herbs was lovely this morning. There is some Fleabane blooming near the dog house. That's one of natures little jokes. And the Morning Glorys are not blooming, but, they have reached the top of the fence and are violently climbing themselves, twisting back and making their own green pole to climb. I should untangle them, but, I find it bizarre and fascinating how they make what they need.
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After the looking and the seeing is ingrained, it is time to align. My eyes close and I concentrate on other senses. There was a slight breeze. This is where my hands come up and somehow know to do something in the air which puts my energy right. I also talk to something. I don't know what it is. I am done talking and moving my energy when I know I am done. It's as simple as that. I feel right. Then I come in, turn on the computer, pour some coffee and my day has started. This is the ritual I need. I desperatly need it and have to do it. I don't hurt anyone with it, it is meant to be a positive thing. It doesn't matter what anyone else believes, they should respect that I need and believe this and let me have it. I am going to have to make this clear somehow. It's such a small thing, why is it so hard to get it?
After the looking and the seeing is ingrained, it is time to align. My eyes close and I concentrate on other senses. There was a slight breeze. This is where my hands come up and somehow know to do something in the air which puts my energy right. I also talk to something. I don't know what it is. I am done talking and moving my energy when I know I am done. It's as simple as that. I feel right. Then I come in, turn on the computer, pour some coffee and my day has started. This is the ritual I need. I desperatly need it and have to do it. I don't hurt anyone with it, it is meant to be a positive thing. It doesn't matter what anyone else believes, they should respect that I need and believe this and let me have it. I am going to have to make this clear somehow. It's such a small thing, why is it so hard to get it?
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Curious side note: Mom just came in here and nicely asked if I could take them shopping at 2pm. I said sure. The change in my attitude is amazing when my ritual is not broken in the morning and I am asked, not ordered.
Asking is always nicer that ordering... good for your mom and good for you realigning your energy and feeling serene and positive. I should have tried that this morning... rough start with my two little devils but now all seems to have fallen back in place. It only took three hours.
Melissa
i feel more peaceful just reading that.. :)
Asking is always nicer than ordering or forcing. Know what I mean.
morning rituals are good! and being alone with your energy and nature is an excellent one!
I agree with you 100%. I need my time at night. Wish my wife would understand that. I love my alone time. Just to recharge for another day. Not loking at porn, just like to be alone for a bit and spacing off. Thanks.
I have to have alone time or I go insane. Today was nice, mom behaved herself...in fact, she said she thought she was crazy and retarded. I couldn't belive she said that. I didn't say anything. I think it's a trap.
But, it's been peaceful and I got the lawns mowed and the tomatoes weeded.
It's so crazy but I read this and got a huge chill spike. It was a nice spike, like recognition, not a creepy one.
I have a morning ritual too. I have to go down to the ocean and sit on my favorite boulder and touch the water. If I only sit on the rockand not touch the water because it's to cold or whatever, I think about it all day and feel bad.
I haven't got an OCD bone in my body. For me, close is always close enough. The word perfectionist would NEVER be used to describe me, but this one thing I MUST do...I've always had a notion that if I ever locate the deity or God/Goddess everyone talks about it would be while sitting on that rock with a barefoot in that water...
I have to correct my energy several times a day. When I remember to 'keep it clean', everything works so much better for me: people are easier to deal with, traffic flows more smoothly, I don't get nearly as upset with problems, etc.
I figured there were other people on here who did somthing like this. It IS a beautiful thing, but, man, it keeps me from going off.
i so agree! what i would give to be able to wake up on my own without outside disturbances...kids, cats, dog , hamster, husband,schizo neighbor.it makes a real difference to be able to have control of my wake up time when the rest of the day i have no me time at all.
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